For, whatever you do ~

Why are matters of affection beyond our control...? Why are we pulled towards someone without our control like a leaf in a storm....? Why at times it is so difficult to let go of something which is causing you pain.......i guess the reason is because at some point of time you have seen yourself feel and live an immense joy coming from the same source, which is causing pain today...

Only what can make your heart fly like a butterfly and sing in joy is the thing which can also hurt so bad that your heart bleeds .....

And the heart ~ mad as it is, cannot forget the joy with which it had flown and the intensity of love it had felt and keeps holding on to what was and is and keeps hoping that it will always be...

Here's a beautiful song by Shirley Basse in her beautiful velvet, silken voice ~ the lyrics aptly describing the situation....

I'd like to run away from you ,
But if you never found me I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me,
But I know I never will

You stay away and all I do ~ is wonder why the hell I wait for you
But when did common sense prevail for lovers when we know it never will
Impossible to live with you, but I know, I could never live without you
For whatever you do ~
I never, never, never want to be in love with anyone but you

You never treat me like you should, so what's the good of loving as I do?
Although you always laugh at love, nothing else would be good enough for you
Impossible to live with you, but I know, I could never live without you
For whatever you do ~
I never, never, never want to be in love with anyone but you

You make me laugh, you make me cry,

You make me live, you make me die, for you
You make me sing, you make me sad,

You make me glad, you make me mad, for you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do~
I never, never, never want to be in love with anyone but you

I release my hold...

A fistful of sand in my hand ~
I had held on to it like it was gold,
A handful of dreams in my eyes,
Now sleep with their stories untold.....

I close my eyes to hide the pain,
Of numbed senses
And battered soul
The realization hurting bad,
The sand does and will eventually roll.....

The world spins and I stand,
Looking at the sand and my hand,
Desparate gripping, reluctant releasing,
Strain in my vien,
My loss and my gain.....

With a heavy heart I now let go ~
Let the sand flow,
Let my gold go...
Let the dreams sleep,
Let the stories remain untold...
Let me forget the summer,
Let me feel the cold
Let it be..let it be....
Sadly, I now release my hold......

The loss...

She (angrily): "I am going back to my own world."
He (teasingly): "Do you think you can leave me...? I'll not let you.......!"
She (with fading anger): "Why do you tease me so much...??"
He (laughing, with mischief in his eyes): "Because you so look beautiful when angry...!"
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She smiles at him lovingly...... her face basking in the sunshine of his laughter...................
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She ~ Walking alone, occasionally looking back...
He ~ Oblivious to her, scattering the sunshine of his laughter on people around him.....
She ~ Blurry eyed, look fervently for something she had before she had found him, and then lost him ~ ~
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But for her life she could find her world ~ where she wanted to go back to...................

Letting go...

At times in life it is ncessary to 'let go' ~

-of circumstances that we do not like but cannot change

-of people that we cannot hold back in our lives
-of relationships that are no longer working for us

Letting go does not mean we are giving up or accepting defeat. It simply means that we are not clinging on to the things which are changing with time and accepting with grace the way our destiny is unfolding. It means that we are letting go of the compulsion to make everything "perfect" as per our understanding.

Letting go is akin to "flowing with the flow". Its like flowing in the river of life like a leaf flows in a stream ~ Taking in everything that comes in the way, seeing everything that this life has to show us, learning everything that this life has to teach us.

By not resisting the things that we cannot change, we can bring an end to the frustrations born out of the helplessness, and a lot of peace can be attained by simply dissolving our individual will in the cosmic will....

But how do we let go...? What is the change that we should bring about in our thinking process....? What are the things that we should be avoiding..?

Here are some practical pointers ~

-Accepting- the things as they are, accepting the limitations of yourself and the people involved.

-Admitting the obvious truth - that you are not responsible to affect a change or correct a problem which is beyond your competency, power, authority or responsibility.

-No perfectionism - Allowing yourself to rid yourself of the perfectionistic need to control every aspect of your life so that nothing goes "wrong" in it.

-Realistic acceptance of loss - after fully grieving a loss admitting that there is nothing left to be done but to accept the loss.

-Confessing faith in God- Openly declare and believe that God, your "Higher Power" is stronger and a great source of power to whom you can hand over these things out of your control. This also involves declaring that God is in charge and admitting that you can only do so much and after that it is up to your Higher Power to take over.

Like all things, it is easier said than done.....but then life teaches.....eventually.........and we are here to learn........

Kabhi-kabhi zindaji mein...

A few lyrics of the "Aditi" song from the latest movie "Jaane tu yaa jane na" ~
The beauty of this song lies in its lovely music...underlying innocence...evident simplicity and the meaningful lyrics...

"Kabhi kabhi Aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai.
Kabhi kabhi Aditi wo bichhar jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai.
Aise mei koi kaise apne aansu o ko behne se roke?
Aur kaise koi sochle everything’s gonna be ok?

Soch jara jaaneja tujhko hum kitna chahte hai.
Rotein hai hum bhi aggar teri ankhon mein aansu aate hai.
Gaane to aata nahi hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hai.
Ke Aditi maan kabhi, kabhi saare jahan mein andhera hota hai;
Lekin raat ke baad hi to sawera hota hai."

Lekin raat ke baad hi to sawera hota hai...
Lekin raat ke baad hi to sawera hota hai...
Lekin raat ke baad hi to sawera hota hai...
(I'm telling this to myself....... :))

"Tu khush hai to lage ke jahan mein chhaayi hai khushi.
Suraj nikle baadlon se aur baatein zindagi.
Suun to jara madhosh hawa tujhse kehne lagi.
Ke Aditi wo jo bichhad-te hai ek na ek din phir mil jaate hai;

Aditi jaane tu ya jaane na phool phir khil jaate hai."

Ke Aditi wo jo bichhad-te hai ek na ek din phir mil jaate hai;Aditi jaane tu ya jaane na phool phir khil jaate hai.
I want to believe it soooooo badly.........!!! :) :)

I also liked the universal appeal of the song....the fact that most of the people would be able to relate with some or the other part of the song....

For the whole day today it was on my lips and i was humming it consciously or unconsciously throughout the day...So definitely this warrents the song a place on my blog ! :)

The fadings...

A little girl looks at the sky
And cries ~
"The red rose you had planted for me
Does not smile these days,
It does not dance
When the rain sprinkles on it,
It does not laugh
When the wind tickles it,
It does not blush
When I say "You the most beautiful rose in the world.."
Does it not believe in me anymore...?
Its red is turning paler and paler
It days are not over yet,
Then why has its soft petals forgotten to quiver with joy?
What unkown season is it awaiting to rejoice...?"

Looking at the saddened girl
And her paling rose,
A drop of tear trickles down my cheek,
For them and for myself too, sadly,
For in both their fadings
I see a reflection of me...