Monday, September 29, 2008
My hands groping in vain,
To find something which I knew before
To give some air to my dying soul...
Feeling suffocated, I struggle with myself,
Not to reach for the ventilator by my side
Oh my ventilator, I love it so much
For it gives me my air to live…
But I cant touch it ~ Its not mine…
A desperate cry screams in my inside ~
"I want to breath before I die…"
But my ventilator's not mine...
And oh..I need a breath…
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
An excerpt from "Shataram" by Gregory David Roberts:
"Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope.
Sometimes we cry with everything but tears.
In the end that's all there is : love and its duty, sorrow and its truth.
In the end thats all we have ~ to hold on tight until the dawn..."
To hold on tight ~ in all those moments of disillusionments, disappointments and weakness of the soul...to hold on tight until the first rays of sun come flying on the wings of the morning breeze and wash away all the hurt and pain........
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Today is Samvatsari ~ actually a Jain festival, but I feel it can be considered a festival of the whole humanity. What else can you call a festival the essence of which is asking for forgiveness from everyone to whom you have done any wrong knowingly or unknowingly, and in turn forgiving everyone who has done any wrong to you?
How cleased a person's soul would feel when all the negativities harbored in it is washed away by a stream of free flowing forgiveness!
How free the soul would feel after breaking free from the grudges that it has been carrying since long !
How pious a person can become and feel after genuinely and humbly asking for forgiveness for what ever hurt or pain one has caused to anyone!
But again, like all good things ~ to forgive and to ask for forgiveness are tasks easier said than done. Too much pride and ego inherent in all human beings would make both the tasks difficult.
But what is more difficult ~ To humbly ask for forgiveness or to forgive genuinly? I was analysing myself and I found that, for me it is more difficult to forgive someone truly than to ask for forgiveness. If I've have hurt someone, if I've done some wrong to someone, I can curb my ego, repent for the wrong I've done and ask for forgiveness from the person. But if I've been wronged, betrayed, insulted, hurt or pained by someone, it is very difficult for me to forgive the person effortlessly.
But if I am able to forgive someone had hurt me, how can expect that I would be forgiven for the hurts that I have knowingly or unknowingly inflicted upon someone?
If I am not able to forgive anyone who has done something wrong, why should I expect that God is going to forgive me for the wrongs that I have done in this life and in the past lives?
Today, on this pious day of Samvatsari, I pray to lord to forgive me for all the wrongs that I have done to any living being in my this life and the past lives. I pray to God to give me the strength and the wisdom to humbly ask for forgiveness for any wrong that I might have done to any living being ~ intentionally or unintentionally, and to forgive from the bottom of my heart everyone who has hurt me and caused me pain in any way.
I pray to lord that my heart and soul is rid of all the bitterness and grugdes against anyone and everyone and I'm engulfed by His everlasting peace and joy.