Saturday, February 28, 2009

Staring into time...


Thats my grandfather. He's 86 and still going reasonably strong ~ In the spirit that is. Though he's not strong enough physically to walk much, every evening he sits in the parking of our apartments and keeps gazing at the street ~ at people coming, going, children playing, shouting, laughing. Every day when I return from work he's sitting there. When people moving around him dont even have a moment to stop and look at him gazing into the spaces of life, wonder what goes in his mind ~ Does he think of his childhood ? His youth ? The good and and bad experiences of life ? His realized and unrealized dreams ? The calculations of gain and loss of life...?
As I take a moment to stop and be in this moment with him, without him being aware of it, a thought suddenly comes to my mind ~ What would I be doing when I will be so old ? Would I be happy with the way I have lived? Would I have any regrets? Sitting like this then, would I be at peace with myself ? And then the decision comes ~ I will live my life in a way that at a time when all I will be able to do is gaze into space and time, and do calculations of my gain and loss ~ I would be able to say ~ Who cares about the gains and losses ! I have lived this life as it should have been lived ~ fully, truly and soulfully and that is all that matters... the silence inside me would not matter then, because I would have heard and played the music of LIFE...

7 comments:

Scarlet said...

What a thought-provoking, inspirational post, Jagriti. The photo of your grandfather is priceless. I do wonder what he's thinking...and what will be floating through our minds if/when we have the privilege of being in his shoes someday.

Scarlet said...

By the way, your letter is "L" for the word game. :)

NRkey Menon said...

the last line really completes the post. Nice!!!

Chandan said...

Lovely post... i asked myself some of the questions you have mentioned as I read the post too. Give your grand pa a hug from me!

Jagriti said...

Thanks friends...glad the post could touch you in some way...

@ Scarlet: Next post is coming up for "L" :)

@ Chandan: Will surely give grandpa a hug from your side...!

Merlin said...

Amazing... makes me think.. I still have time.. lots of it.. to make things work.. Thanks for a wonderful post..

mon espace said...

I guess it does not matter how well you dance to the various beats of life, all that matters is that you dance.. :)

"Earth wind and rain and fire,
Wealth power love desire,
One goal to live for before we die,
One taste of glory,
One mouthful of sky..."